So, hello again, I suppose?

I didn't realize how long has it passed since I swore to myself that I won't neglect this blog. 
I know this sounds rather awkward but, let's just start with quoting a famous sentence by C.S. Lewis ;

"Isn't it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back everything's different?"

When I first read that, I thought, well, that's kinda funny.

And so very true.

You know, 
when some days you feel so lost like every other person in this world just don't get your situation, 
or as if you barely know them. 

As if you're not really living, 
you're just passing time, 
without knowing what are you really doing.

Some days in life when you feel like you're in a deep shit and nothing's ever going to change.

They say, it's okay to look back and visit the past, 
but be very, 
very careful, not to live in it.

Those weren't even something that I wished ever happened to me.
But maybe I was just tired of everything. 

Tired of my surroundings. 
Tired of being unhappy. 
Tired of seeing people that I thought would be there,
walked away one by one.

I didn't know what or where should I start fixing it. 
Because too much things happened and they were too overwhelming. 

So I started with myself. 
Because that was it, nothing left. 
Because I choose to be happy, 
and I know I deserve to.